Before the hiatus I expressed my frustration with blogging and hinted at a BIG development on the acting front. As you may know (or will find out if you're new) is that I absolutely love being able to inspire or motivate others to pursue their passions, goals, overall happiness etc. It is no secret that my main love and passion is acting and that I've been actively pursuing that dream since I was a little girl. Some may know what that big development was but for those of you still in the dark, I can finally share the news: Orange Is the New Black!. Last June I booked a recurring role on the hit Netflix show and to say that it was and has been a dream come true is an understatement. The obvious change in my life also came with a lot of unexpected emotional twists and turns, moments of intense thinking, and unfortunately, doubt. Which is why I was so ambivalent about continuing to share my voice in the digital space. I wasn't sure if I could do both (acting and blogging) without one suffering and it held me back (among other things).
However the time away did me some good. I needed it. Through conversations, tons of reading, and watching Periscopes, I was reminded of why I started and that is important. Slacking on the blog will be inevitable; obligations to my career, my sanity and health, family and friends are all at the top of the list for me. Let's be real: life happens. There is so much out of our control and burn out is not a joke. At the end of the day everything we throw ourselves into is a balancing act; sometimes we're totally killing it and then there are moments when we are failing so badly we begin to question everything and anything. If you've been on this roller coaster more than once, I'm so with you, and it's okay. Don't beat yourself up over it. You are human after all.
On the days that I film I wake up with a tank full of gratitude; I am living my dream. Yes some days are harder and longer than others and feeling tired (physically, mentally, emotionally) is part of the game but I honestly love it and wouldn't have it any other way. Some times I still can't believe that what I visualized has come to fruition. I wholeheartedly believe in that sh*t though. Visualization is powerful. Try it!
At the moment I am literally trying to simply enjoy the moment. It's unbelievable how difficult that is to actually do! In the brief blocks of time that I am alone I just sit and meditate, center myself and thoughts, focus on the good and the blessings. It's so easy to lose sight of it all and that's not something I want to make a habit of. More than ever the importance of positive energy and people is very clear and I've become even more protective of my time and company.
With the relaunch it seemed only fitting to update you all on what's been going on. There are a few things in the works so be sure to subscribe so you don't miss out!